Howie Mandel opens up to Joe Rogan about ongoing depression: ‘I’m a f—ing mess’

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Comedian and "America's Got Talent" judge Howie Mandel was blunt about his struggles with anxiety and depression during an appearance on "The Joe Rogan Experience" this week.

Mandel surprised Rogan by revealing he wasn't happy, despite finding success, a great support system and taking medication. "I'm a f—ing mess," he confessed. "When I hear about a person like you that doesn't feel well, that gets depressed, [I think] God da—it, when he's around people he seems so happy," the podcast host responded.

Mandel admitted that he found staying busy and talking to others kept him "distracted" from the negative emotions. But he struggled when he was alone. "The worst thing for me is quiet time.

I don't like nighttime, I don't like when I get into my own head.That's why I like stand-up comedy," Mandel said. "Because in those moments you're just in the moment because you have to be." Mandel said he was always on the precipice of going into a dark place in his mind. "If I veered off into the darkness that is me…I feel like I'm balancing on this little ledge all the time.These words and these interactions— are my cable that hold me on this side of it without falling off," he explained.