EX-EASTENDERS actress Bonnie Langford revealed the real reason why she didn't watch the brutal death of her on-screen son Kush Kazemi.
The 57-year-old played Carmel on Albert Square from 2015 and 2018 and was mum to Kush (Davood Ghadami). Kush was brutally murdered by serial killer Gray Atkins (Toby Alexander Smith) who pushed him on tube tracks last year.
As Kush was crushed under the wheels in the horror scenes, Gray simply pulled up his hood and calmly walked away, leaving fans horrified.
Bonnie told Inside Soap: "Davood is adorable, such a lovely man, and that wasn't a nice ending. "So I didn't watch Kush being chucked under a tube train, no, I didn't want to see that.
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