Billie Eilish's 'Everything I Wanted' Was Originally About a Much Darker Subject

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In late 2019, Billie Eilish unveiled "everything i wanted," her tribute to her brother Finneas. The tune features sweet lyrics in the chorus, "As long as I'm here / No one can hurt you," but in a New York Times profile, the teen superstar admits that the song wasn't always so reassuring.Eilish got inspiration for the song a year prior, when she had a dream about taking her own life.

When she took the idea to her brother, he became uncomfortable with the worrying topic. “We had this big argument,” she told the publication, “Because I admitted something that I was, uh.

It wasn’t a physical thing I was admitting. I don’t know how to put it without actually saying it, and I don’t want to actually say it.