Wynonna Judd opens up about 'panicking' over change in family dynamic in the wake of mother's death

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As the holidays fast approached in November, the death of Naomi Judd still weighed heavily on the oldest of her two daughters Wynonna Judd.That grief and loss then turned to panic on at least one occasion when the country music star realized their family dynamic had changed forever in the wake of her mother's suicide on April 30 at the age of 76.It happened when she was preparing to host family and friends at her home for Thanksgiving dinner, something her mother had done for so many years.

There was first a sense of calm early that morning when she reminded herself to breathe.'Of course, that [calm] lasted for all of 38 minutes, and then I went into panic,' Judd, 58, told grief specialist David Kessler, as reported by People. 'Because I realized something, and that is that I'm now the matriarch.

And I think the pressure of that alone was like, "Oh my gosh, my mom isn't here this year. And I made her favorite foods, and I did it really well."' Family dynamic change: Wynonna Judd revealed that she panicked during the Thanksgiving holiday when she realized that she's now the matriarch of her family, in the wake of her mother Naomi Judds' death in April; she is pictured with her mother 19 days before her passingWhile preparing food for the Thanksgiving feast, the Give A Little Love star 'numbed out' from all the swirling emotions, but after the day gave way to night and people began to arrive she soon felt some 'relief.'But that relief would fleeting as the pressure of having 'to sort of be all things to all people' began to grow louder in her head.