'The Bachelorette': Jason Reflects on 'Especially Painful' Time Since His Split From Gabby

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Gabby Windey broke things off on , Jason took to Instagram to address his time on the show and give an update on how he's been since.«This has been an especially painful time, and watching back those final moments we shared was absolutely heart wrenching,» Jason wrote alongside a photo of himself walking on the beach. «I have learned so much about myself through this process, but mostly I have learned that Gabby is one of the strongest women I’ve ever met.»«Her ability to keep her heart open and be vulnerable while navigating an impossibly complex and delicate situation is testament to that,» he added, «and I have nothing but admiration and respect for her.»While Jason and Gabby's relationship appeared to be going strong in the latter part of the season, he realized that he wouldn't be ready to propose during Hometowns week, despite things going well between the nurse and his family.Though he knew a proposal wasn't coming, Jason traveled to Mexico for Fantasy Suites.

He and Gabby had a fun day playing tennis, and it wasn't until their dinner together that Jason revealed he wasn't planning on getting down on one knee.«I know what the expectation of this is for a lot of people, being engaged and being fully in love.

To be completely transparent and honest, I don’t think I’m fully there yet,» he confessed. «I think it’s because in this environment it’s constantly in my head what’s real, what’s not real.

I’m questioning so many things. I don’t think in another seven days I’ll be ready for that.»He took things further shortly thereafter, telling Gabby, «I feel like you don’t even know who I am completely.