Amanda Abbington has bravely revealed how she considered suicide after splitting from her longtime partner, Martin Freeman.The actress – who is best known for playing Mary Watson in Sherlock – told James O'Brien on his Full Disclosure podcast, how she "was a bit of a mess" and "hated herself."Opening up about some of her darker moments, Amanda frankly recalled the first time she'd considered taking her own life. "And I was sat there as I was driving, in my head, and I haven't said this since I started therapy six years ago, 'you could always kill yourself,'" she candidly shared. Amanda and Martin share two children together"And that was what my mantra used to be.