Nicole Kidman, 57, reveals she wakes up ‘crying and gasping’ over her mortality — and Keith Urban marriage

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GQ published Monday about how she’s “open to emotions” and feels things deeper now more than ever.“Mortality. Connection. Life coming and hitting you,” she said. “And [the] loss of parents and raising children and marriage and all of the things that go into making you a fully sentient human.”“I’m in all of those places,” Kidman added. “So life is, whew.

It’s definitely a journey.”The “Big Little Lies” star continued, “And it hits you as you get older how … it’s a wake up at 3 a.m.

crying and gasping kind of thing. If you’re in it and not numbing yourself to it. And I’m in it. Fully in it.”Kidman shared more about her outlook on mortality while reflecting on her dad Antony Kidman’s death in 2014.“There’s the mortality aspect of life which, when you start to deal with that, it’s very heavy,” she explained. “When you’re raising children you’re like, I gotta stay here.

I wanna see all of this. It’s devastating and beautiful and extraordinary.”Kidman is newly grieving the death of her mom, Janelle Ann Kidman, who passed away at age 84 in September.