Nick Cannon's Ex Jessica White Reflects on 'Healing' From Their Relationship: 'We Hurt Each Other'

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Nick Cannon. Ahead of the season premiere of on Tuesday, White, who's starring on the show, took to Instagram to send a message to her ex after being unable to reach him directly.«I know you're upset about the show but after eight years I can't stand when things catch you off guard,» she wrote, «and I feel like you deserve way more respect as a man even though I may be more respectful than you ever gave me with public announcements.»White and Cannon began dating in 2015, and the model noted in her post that she gave the TV personality «eight ride or die years,» all while «praying» that he'd «see me the way I deserved.»«I wanted it to work, prayed every day that you'd see me and love me the way that I loved you.

Maybe you did but just kept it from me during the relationship,» she wrote. «I walked away with more questions than anything, I don't know till this day really why current things had to happen.»White revealed that she wants «the world to know» that she «didn't always feel good, like [Cannon] was proud to have me as a partner.» That's changed now, though.«I'm so happy I can say that now and still know how awesome I am,» she wrote. «I'm proud I can say the truth and how I'm healthy emotionally and wouldn't change my insane insecurities that I prayed off my life.»Those insecurities, she admitted, go back to «way before Nick.»«I never felt love that was safe even as a kid so no Nick you didn't cause that pain I had it long before us but I put it off on you unfairly without seeing that my healing needed to be deeper past us,» she wrote. «I mean you added to it but my fear of not being loved wasn't broken by you I'd like to publicly say that.»A post shared by Jessicaangel White (@iamjypsywhite)White additionally wrote.