Meghan Markle is "still haunted" by a photo of her walking the red carpet when she was pregnant with Archie as it was taken just hours after she told Prince Harry she "didn't want to be alive any more".
While the Duchess of Sussex looked happy and relaxed as she joined her husband at a special performance of Cirque du Soleil's Totem show at the Royal Albert Hall, she explained that the reality was very different.
Speaking to Oprah Winfrey in a historical interview about her time in the royal family, Meghan said that she had suicidal thoughts.
She said that she told Harry about her feelings and he "cradled her", but they then had to get dressed up and go to the engagement.
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