Martine McCutcheon praises son Rafferty as she details heartbreaking experience with grief

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Martine McCutcheon has reflected on the loss she is feeling after the sudden death of her younger brother Laurence John (LJ).MORE: 'Heartbroken' Martine McCutcheon makes emotional confession after brother LJ's tragic deathDespite her struggle with grief, the 46-year-old is vowing to keep moving forward for the sake of her seven-year-old son Rafferty.WATCH: Martine McCutcheon shares update after brother's deathTaking to Instagram on Sunday to share a snapshot of their weekend together, Martine wrote: "This little monkey needs me no matter what… He keeps me keeping on.MORE: 19 celebrities detail their heartbreaking experience with griefREAD: 7 expert tips on how to help a child deal with grief"We've been busy this week and weekend and it definitely seems to help me when I see the world continuing to spin and life ticking along… But I can't help but look at people and wonder what their story of grief is?"On Tuesday, Martine revealed her brother LJ died, aged 31, without medical explanation just weeks prior to his wedding.A post shared by Martine McCutcheon (@martinemccutcheon)Martine shared this heartbreaking post on Sunday"Life isn't always easy and I think human beings are so brave… I'm in awe," added the TV star. "I've mostly felt out of my body and on autopilot - I think that's my way of being able to deal with my shock and grief, along with my responsibilities simultaneously - And then suddenly, with no apparent trigger, waves of emotion have come crashing over me…"READ: Best books about coping with grief to help deal with the loss of a loved oneSEE: 47 gift ideas to cheer someone up who might be going through a tough time right nowOn allowing her emotions to come through, Martine explained: "If I'm alone, or with Jack.