David Berman’s purest poetry

thefader.com:

“At night when I have dreams, I lose almost always,” David Berman told The FADER in 2005, in his first ever extended interview. “I’m being betrayed, or left behind, or somehow losing the game.

One of the first things I do when I wake up every day is remember that I’m not really losing.” It was 2005, and he’d been clean and sober for nearly two years after attempting suicide by overdosing on Xanax and crack in the Vanderbilt hotel suite where Al Gore watched his presidential candidacy crumble in 2000.

A year after the attempt — happy for the first time in years and connecting with Judaism in a way the Silver Jews frontman never had before — he decided he’d died that night and was living in an imaginary future..